sooo... I'm still here! :)

It has been such a very long time since I posted.

It feels strange.

I just haven't felt that much into writing about my life.

I would say that it's pretty boring.

Mmmm... you might argue with me on that point.

Anyway, remember how I said (wrote) that my life had changed drastically at one point?

And that I would post about it later?

Well, it has still changed several more times since then.  And is about to change again.


Let me just tell you about it.
 

At the beginning of November, my nannying gig unexpectedly came to an end.  I could've stayed in their house (I was living with them at the time as part of my pay), but chose to vacate and get moving so that I could figure out what my next step would be.

I moved all my stuff into a friend's house and stayed on their couch for a couple weeks while I hunted for jobs, interviewed, and worked on getting a handle on and organizing my money situation.

In a fairly short amount of time, I landed a job substitute teaching in Provo School District, and soon after, I found out about an open room in a friend's house, which I quickly snatched up.  I moved into that house, and began substitute teaching. Intermittently. Sometimes it's hard to find sub jobs. Actually, a lot of the time.

Also, I forgot to mention that about a week before Thanksgiving, I started dating someone. A new someone. 

Anyway, money was still pretty tight at that point, and the room I had moved into wasn't exactly cheap.  Or even average-priced, for that matter.  So I decided that it would be wise to move again and find something a little cheaper.   

I had a couple of ideas of places to which I could move, but nothing was cemented.  Nevertheless, I have great friends, and knew I could stay with them for a bit should I get stuck without a place, so I decided to take the plunge, and I just sold my contract, moved my stuff out and back into a friend's house, and then flew home for Christmas break the next day.

Over break, I got in contact with some acquaintances who were moving all together into a new house.  Combined with the four of us, the rent would be really cheap, so I agreed to move in with them.  As soon as I got back from break, I began moving my stuff into the new house.  Didn't take me long, and I picked up lots more sub jobs, so things started calming down (it seemed).  I was still dating said boy.

A couple weeks ago, I got a text from my fabulous friend Brooke, which said that they would soon have an open room in their house.  "This is great news" I said.  

And I decided to consider it. 

Do you ever start writing a blog post, and then get tired of writing it part of the way through? I do. Right now actually.


That day I crunched some numbers, got some more detailed info on the room, etc. and after much deliberation, I decided to take it.  


Honestly, I feel a little ridiculous for moving so much, but I really think it will do wonders for me, and help me feel more secure in dealing with everything! But especially the specific challenges I'm dealing with right now.  And if I've learned anything, it's that I need to do what's best for me, regardless of what everyone else is going to think, and ultimately, I'll be happier.  This I know.  


So... in about a week, I'm moving yet again.  I still haven't found anyone to take my contract where I'm at now, but I've posted an ad on craigslist, and have had a couple of people look into it.  I have high hopes.  Know anyone who's looking for somewhere really cheap to live?  Somewhere with awesome roommates and a huge pantry and kitchen and washer and dryer?  


Also, I broke up with aforementioned boy on Saturday. Suck.


Also, I decided a little while ago that I'm not earning enough money subbing.  It pays reasonably well, but it's not consistent enough.  I want something more consistent.  I think that would really help with feeling stressed and anxious. 
 
So right now, I am job-searching yet again.  

However, I have mixed feelings about it.  I really hate job searching. I hate interviewing, I hate repeatedly filling out my information and employment history on job applications even though I'm attaching a resume (with all the ame information on it!!!) anyway.  I hate trying to sell myself and make myself look good. I JUST AM WHO I FREAKIN' AM.  Grr.  I hate checking craigslist all the time and trying to deciper what people's stupid listings mean, and i hate emailing more and more people with the EXACT SAME questions I asked the last person, and the five people before that, etc. etc.  (I'm starting to feel like that part from "Ten Things I Hate About You"). What a ridiculous exercise in buttering up future employers, and using big words that you don't really mean job-searching is.  It just disgusts me.

There are so many other cooler (and more worthwhile (i know i know... just don't argue with me right now. i'm ranting.)) things I could be doing with my time.  Like developing hobbies, or reading and educating myself, or spending time with the people in my life that I love, or helping someone, or, or, or... you get the picture. 

Anyway, that's where I'm at right now.  Hopefully everything will go smoothly this week. Hopefully I'll find someone to take my contract, and maybe I'll get a new job.  

Yeah, like I said, my life is kind of boring.  Some days I don't like being a grown up.

PS. I have a goal of taking more pictures, which will hopefully translate to more pictures on this here blog.  Which would be just fabulous.  Or maybe I'll post old pictures that I haven't posted yet to supplement.